I have junk foods I love, cake frosting, home made cookies, super moist brownies, cinnamon rolls....ect. The last, oh, 3 years I have really not restricted any of these completely for any period of time. Granted, I wasn't living off them daily, but I would have Graham crackers @ work when hungry, same for candy in the form of candy bar mini's from the never empty candy jar in our bosses office. And when the really good stuff came along (see list above) I would have it to and like it, but not enjoy it, like really really savour and taste it. Usually it was a rushed inhale of food, followed by the little voice nagging in the back of my head saying I really didn't need that, followed by some guilt and a lot of disappointment. I distinctly remember when I was dieting down for shows how much more I appreciated food. Smells were huge, just the smell of baking bread and I was smiling, and if/when I was allowed cheats, they tasted like heaven. I would dream about food. It's starting again. Not a lot, but this morning I wanted some nice starchy carbs, a huge bowl of oatmeal with tons of brown sugar , cereal, anything. I had my 28gram of nuts instead but I also got kinda excited.
You see, I love it that I'm getting to that point. That I'm reeling in my nutrition enough that it's showing. That I'm locking into a habit so completely that to have a cheat would be exactly that, having a cheat.It wouldn't be just everyday dessert. It would be an occasion, because it would be so far from what I'm doing now. Before, crap food just blended in to my diet because my nutrition was so sloppy. Now it would stick out like a thigh abductor machine in a crossfit gym. And to me, that's success.
There is a bodybuilder Kai Green. who I love. I used to find videos of him for inspiration, just because to him, bodybuilding was a journey, a philosophy, and he always had a way of saying it that made me crack up. This clip, he's on the stepmill I think, getting ready for a show sharing some thoughts on life, training and food. The whole thing is good, but the food part that I love is from 2 min in to about 4 min. It's worth checking out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z-o-eUjQeZI&feature=related
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